I still think about how we met. How everything was wrong: the timing, the instant intense attraction, the people around us and my ego that got in the way. Looking back now, I should have told you that I was leaving? I honestly didn?t think you?d care.. I still don?t know if you still do? My mistake was only see you as the ideal partner and not getting to fully know you. I couldn?t have - the timing always seemed wrong. I have always wanted to apologize to you too. Every time I try to, I stop myself. You might not see this? even so, this is my cowardly apology to you because I don?t think I can muster the courage to reach out to do so.